Background: im not an amazing person. im not a perfect person. i am flawed in many ways. im just here. im just me. Hey. I'm Josh. I live in a small town. With a small school. (Yeah, a small trashy school where you can't even use the gym!) I am very shy, depending on who I am around and what we are doing. Most likely if I approach you first, I will talk a lot and probably do some weird things like sing or dance. If you come to me first, I'll probably look down and think really hard about what to say and then I'd s-st-st-stutter. But after a while I'm sure we'll become great friends :) I consider myself a very nice person, (With big bushy hair) but not an amazing person. I don't like to talk behind anyone's back and I don't like it when others do. I never get mad at anybody no matter what they do to me. (Although, he has been known to get annoyed at times) I'm a very random person and I like to give things away and to be nice and make people happy. I think other people are more important than me so I treat them that way. I like to laugh. I love to make other people laugh too. I don't like it when guys call girls chicks. (Too true!)It just seems demeaning. And I don't appreciate it when they call them hott. (Can't you just love a guy like this?)I'd much rather hear them be called pretty, beautiful, or cute. I think everyone is beautiful... especially girls... They're really pretty. But I don't rate people on their looks. That's why when you pass by me, you will never see me sitting down with a group of guys talking about girl's bodies and wondering how they would be in bed. I don't think its necessary. (Girls there are very few of these guys out there. Take em' before they're all gone!!!) Especially when you don't even know the girl. I think differently then most people. If you are nice I will like you and if you are mean to me, I probably will still like you. Random. I straighten my hair. I like the scene look. - - I would like to meet Hayley Williams, the lead singer of Paramore. She's so talented and I really admire her. She's also been through so much. She's very little, "short as crap"- as she says. And from what I've heard and seen on T.V. shes very nice and talks alot. I want to meet her one day and talk to her and maybe we would become really good friends XD. I've seen her riding a bike once and she was so little : ) SHE IS SO TALENTED So Sweet! Teen Scene Lyts. i love life. i love the stars. everything amazes me. im feel every emotion. i like looking at things with different views and perspectives. i think that death is beautiful. i love tradgedy and love because the ideas and feelings are so strong. most of the time people think i look sad but im mostly just thinking. of life, the world, and so on. its hard to explain how i think and feel. i guess ud just have to be me for a day. i always have mixed emotions. i dnt sleep much. i spend my nights wandering around and just admiring everything. i like to write. i have multiple views on everything which contradicts some of my other views. i find loopholes for everything. i beleive in everything. im different. death is a part of life. breathing slowly kills you. i want to live and die in multiple ways in multiple realities multiple times. words cant define who i am. i am one of the most spuratic persons u will ever meet. i will be quiet and sad one minute. then ill yel and dance arouund the next and be the happiest person on earth. i am easily amused. i talk to inadimate objects and have full on conversations with them and myself. i find everything so amazing. i like old run down eirie houses and things like that. i like trees. i like dead trees. i like watching the world change. im scared for the world to change. i love love but im phelophobic: afraid to fall in love. i wish i were on the titanic. i love the 60's the 20's the 30's the 80's and pretty much any other time because i love the ideas and the feelings from them. i would be 17 throughout all time includimg the past and id relive life each decade. the world is just a peice of dirt nothing more. there is nothing more to it but life and death and greed. and yet it is so beautiful in its imperfection. but i beleive in so much more and there is so much more to the world and so much more then just our world. everything known is in our minds. what we beleive, what society makes us belleive, and what we wish to beleive. make your own reality. how do we know if anything is real. we use words we created to describe things and feelings. everything we know is related with something else that is related to something else. its a cycle that can be changed in so many ways. it just takes an open mind and new ideas. everyone sees the world differently but they use similar words to decribe it because those words are the closest things they can com up with to how they really feel........... im done typing for now. my parents love me i guess. but they really dislike me. they say i drive them crazy and that im different.. that i wont conform. i want to be on my own and travel.. meet people and have adventures. i wanna barely make it by. i want to do something amazing. i want to jump trains and hitch rides and do whatever it takes. id find a way. my parents say they give me everything i want.. but really i never asked for any of it. sometimes i think theyd be more happy if i was gone. or maybe they would miss me. they are amazing people. i want to make them happy. i try. but in their eyes i cant do anything right. imperfection is perfection. happiness is misery. love is hate. sight is deception. the truths are lies. fantasies are made into realities. and fate, hope, luck, and faith are all the same. nothing is impossible for me to do. i dnt set limits on myself. i can be vain at times. i dnt like participating in any kind of sports really. but i can do backflips and stuff and im really athletic for some reason. i want to acheive the impossible or atleast die trying. i like to travel. as u can see i have multiple peronas. i am a perfectionist. i am lazy. i am egotistic. i do not have a girlfriend because i am looking for something serious and true and havent found it yet. i like girls but i find guys attractive to and i get jealous at their looks. i am not gay. i want to find my one true love. ive had girls that have given me the butterflies before but its never been true true love. i hope that one day i will find the girl that will be my true love. oohh i love cake and candy and sweets :]:] vampires are amazing. i want someone to hold, someone to keep me warm. im always so cold someone who can protect me from all the bad things and from myself. someone i can protect and love.one day these words will mean nothing and everything i lived for will fade away so i pray to god that your still standing. everything will change. lets get lost with eachother. i have a fear of growing older. becoming something new. aging. changing. when i get older all this will be nothing. i want to be young forever...look young forever. i need something to hold onto. hmm i dont realy fit in anywhere. i get dirty looks alot. adults dont like me. im an outcast. music is my life. i couldnt live without it. i like to make music. anyone wanna start a musical project with me? i cant find myself as beautiful, yet i find my imperfection as a peice of art. i despize everything about me. i dnt get what people see in me or if they even see me at all.i enjoy photography and the sky. sunsets. i live at night but the day is beautiful. i like laying on the grass and looking at the clouds i like sitting by lakes< throwing pebbles into the water and staring out into the horizon. i think life is beautiful. live each day. i love and hate the sun. i like skipping and finding daisies and playing she loves me.. she loves me not. i have two sides of me... some see the pessemistix side..some see the optimistic side...im actualy very happy. im really shy but i talk to random people like police officers and bus drivers. i attract odd people in cities... i get money for either looking cool or famous, looking homeless, or doing a random job. a homeless person tought i was an angel and gave me a magic cell phone. :] i like turtles. i like to dance... by myself.... i am strait,,, brogan and corey and everyone i know are true friends. ive known vbrogan since birth. we've had so many adventures and memories. camping..vbeaches. pretty much everything we do is using our imagination. i realize that eery game we ever played was acting. we make up our own lives' characters, realities. he's mean to his dad lol. corey would do anything for me. i could ignore him for a year and hed still act like nothing ever happened. he reminds me of bam margera. ray is cool. he k=can pick me up and throw me. he teases me all the time. my sister ylana is so important to me. without her id be far away. megan is amazing as well. she is my vbest girl friend. if i forgot anyone.. i know i did.. but if you feel you deserve to vbe mentioned let me know. its sad.. one day we have to grow old. maybe not? but if we do then atleast we will grow together. i would like to thank everyone who influenced my life. or will influence in the past present and future. i will always keep my memories. and marko is crazy.. he moved to holland.. ima go to soon. i love to travel. ive been all ovber the world..europe..the middle east..and all over america..and hawaii included...my mom went to china..and japan..without me. i get dirty looks alot. sometimes i enjoy it and act crazy. sometimes i get a feeling of pure hatred of myself and everything. i will always hae fun and these will vbe the days that i will remember. i used to be a strait A' student. i dont know what happened to me i just dont concentrate on school anymore. i want to but i just cant for some reason. i try but i procrastinate. im smart but i dont do homework. i really want to do better.
Interests: i am interested in acting, writing, music, modeling, photography and film. i want to play roles that have "different" character types. i want to experience life to the fullest. i want to do everything, but with one life it is impossible. i want to live multiple lives and i feel that i have the ability to portray different people. that is why i want to act. to express this feeling, need, and talent
Goals: my goal is to do what i love for a living. To be a part of something i dont set limits for myself. i set goals and i intend to meet every single one of them