And I'm Singing "Oh Oh" on a Friday Night

I'm backwards. I do the exact opposite of a normal teenage girl. I'd rather be alone than around people. I'd rather do work myself than allow others to help. When I'm innately good at something, I give it up to pursue other activities, instead of using my intrinsic skill to become the best. It takes me a while to make close friends and then as soon as I do, I pack up and leave to start a new life elsewhere. I don't know why I do things the way I do, that's just the way it plays out for me. I can't decide if it's because I'm trying to challenge myself, but usually these decisions bring me more pain than success. Maybe it's cause I want it all. I want life, the most fulfilling life ever. One where I can do everything, where I can have my cake and eat it too. Is that even possible? Well even if it isn't, it's what everyone wants. Society has programmed us to work hard for what we want, so we feel entitled to our objectives. This is both a good and a bad thing. Its good to have goals to strive for and to feel the happiness when we are rewarded for our struggles but when does determination cross that thin line to greed. In a society of rushing and deadlines and competition we want it all and we want it now. Competition. It's both healthy and unhealthy. It gives us a standard to surpass so that we can create one of our own. It allows us to define ourselves and define others at the same time as being better or worse than us. Society has become impersonal because of millions of people wrapped up in their lives competing for the same things. While competition is a way to ensure progress, we all need a chance to step back, breathe, and appreciate the accomplishments of our fellow men, and until we do that our fleeting happiness is forever to be shot-lived.